My aunt is dead.
My one true love has gotten completely over me.
I live in a horrible place to try and be happy.
I mean, pinetop lakeside/show low...its miserable here, and everyone I knew has realized that and moved on.
Im stuck.
Vanessa has gotten over me, yet here I am bellowing about her still and balling my eyes out. How the hell did she do it?
My aunt nikki, one of the closest relatives I knew passed away...
Wtf life?
I can not stop shaking, or crying.
Call me a baby, call me a pussy, call me whatever you want.
But this is pain to me ok.
It may not be as strong a pain you feel, or I may not be as strong as you are.
But in my standards, this is pain.
My heart hurts from heatbreak.
Eyes hurt from crying so much.
Head hurts from thinking about too many things.
Body hurts from lack of sleep.
I dont know why this has started happening, but my planets are definitely not aligned what-so-ever blogger.
They are off. Skewed even.
and I dont know why I am even trying to get this feeling of dread away.
The more I try, the worse it gets, the more terrible I feel.
My life...is just turning into a terrible track record of horrible accidents.
No...this isn't an emo becoming of me.
This is me venting. Because I hurt inside and the only way I find myself thinking better is when I tell the internet about it...thousands...no millions of random people who don't know me could accidentally see this and start laughing because of it.
But you know what...I want them to.
I don't care who sees this, because its my way of venting without feeling dreadful or terrified.
So judge, comment, message.
I dont care, I've lost all hope in life, and hope you find some in yours.
Because I have become bitter, and feel its more just for you to have happiness.
I will be a shell, absorbing whatever emotion is needed for the time, but in reality, im not feeling much of anything inside anymore.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
A little update from my life
So I decide to do this is one way, I will drop the happy news before the sad news, just to get that monkey off your back of how the job thing went.
Well I didnt get fired, only written up because the DM (district manager gavin) loves me.
Other SGA's would have gotten fired over the thing that happened, but since he liked me, he didnt want me getting fired. Sweet right?
(Hold the yays and applause cause here comes the depressed shit)
So Vanessa practically told me I have absolutely no more chances with her which made me slightly depressed because...well I love her, truly I do, and I would do anything to have her see how serious I am about wanting to be with her.
Her boyfriend, who drinks with her and smokes, has given her a promise ring.
Even typing that sent my heart down to my stomach, and I feel as though I have been stabbed repetitively.
It sucks honestly blogger.
It really does, and I know it seems like, "Oh brenden, its just drama bull shit. Don't worry, your just too young anyways and feeling sorry for yourself."
No, this I know, is me in love.
I have never been this hung up over someone in my life.
Its been 5 months...5 months of me thinking about her, wanting her back, needing her.
So this is it...Brenden can no longer really be happy since he was denied by the person he loves.
It really hurts...a lot.
Say what you want, but I know what I feel, that is why I am me, and you are not me.
So here is where I try to solve my problems, this is my new list of things I need to change about myself:
I will check them off once completed, and If I can not complete this, I dont know what I will do.
[ ] Try not getting so attached to who ever I get involved with.
[ ] Keep a safe distance between the person, and my feelings.
[ ] Stronger emotions, and less sadness.
[ ] Don't force anything, let it come.
[ ] Be careful of who I go for.
[ ] Don't ever think about anyone else's emotions before mine.
[ ] Put me before anyone else.
[ ] Get some self respect.
[ ] Grow a spine.
[ ] Figure out my life*
[ ] Get over Vanessa...once and for all*
[ ] Create a sort of mental nirvana for myself to escape to whenever things get too out of hand.
[ ] Meditate on a regular schedule.
* means the harder challenges for me.
I dont know...maybe or maybe not, I can do this...who knows.
Currently my mind is clouded by her still...maybe I can meditate it off or something.
Well thats all for me tonight.
Goodnight Passerby and blogger.
This is all for science.
Well I didnt get fired, only written up because the DM (district manager gavin) loves me.
Other SGA's would have gotten fired over the thing that happened, but since he liked me, he didnt want me getting fired. Sweet right?
(Hold the yays and applause cause here comes the depressed shit)
So Vanessa practically told me I have absolutely no more chances with her which made me slightly depressed because...well I love her, truly I do, and I would do anything to have her see how serious I am about wanting to be with her.
Her boyfriend, who drinks with her and smokes, has given her a promise ring.
Even typing that sent my heart down to my stomach, and I feel as though I have been stabbed repetitively.
It sucks honestly blogger.
It really does, and I know it seems like, "Oh brenden, its just drama bull shit. Don't worry, your just too young anyways and feeling sorry for yourself."
No, this I know, is me in love.
I have never been this hung up over someone in my life.
Its been 5 months...5 months of me thinking about her, wanting her back, needing her.
So this is it...Brenden can no longer really be happy since he was denied by the person he loves.
It really hurts...a lot.
Say what you want, but I know what I feel, that is why I am me, and you are not me.
So here is where I try to solve my problems, this is my new list of things I need to change about myself:
I will check them off once completed, and If I can not complete this, I dont know what I will do.
[ ] Try not getting so attached to who ever I get involved with.
[ ] Keep a safe distance between the person, and my feelings.
[ ] Stronger emotions, and less sadness.
[ ] Don't force anything, let it come.
[ ] Be careful of who I go for.
[ ] Don't ever think about anyone else's emotions before mine.
[ ] Put me before anyone else.
[ ] Get some self respect.
[ ] Grow a spine.
[ ] Figure out my life*
[ ] Get over Vanessa...once and for all*
[ ] Create a sort of mental nirvana for myself to escape to whenever things get too out of hand.
[ ] Meditate on a regular schedule.
* means the harder challenges for me.
I dont know...maybe or maybe not, I can do this...who knows.
Currently my mind is clouded by her still...maybe I can meditate it off or something.
Well thats all for me tonight.
Goodnight Passerby and blogger.
This is all for science.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
No one really knows how true Colin Haye's songs are...
Its a terrible inconvenience for me.
I know its been a horribly long time since the last time I blogged, and I am truly sorry that the first one in a long time is gonna be a depression rant, it's all I have right now. (Litterally)
I don't know what I did to deserve what is going on, so I will fill you in and maybe you will get some ideas for me to share or something.
So here it goes:
Last week, I had a dream that I saw my ex Vanessa and we started living together again. For those of you who do not know who this is, she is my ex that drank a lot, and I finally was able to get her to stop, but for some ungodly reason, I broke up with her.
Dumbest mistake i've ever made.
So her and I were living together as a family, happy. And I woke up from this dream to a text from her saying we should hang out.
My heart jumped with joy, so I said yeah but it would have to be next tuesday (this weeks tuesday) and we planned it out.
I got it all in my head that I could get her back, and that was my first mistake.
As I get there I see how beautiful she is, but Christie texts me saying she has a boyfriend...my heart dropped from the top of my chest, to my stomach.
Her boyfriend is this guy who drags her to parties and gets her to drink and smoke weed with him. And so I think to myself...well thats just not fair.
I was good for her, I was good to her, I was happy with her.
So I talked to her seeing if I could possibly have another chance with her and she said she would think about it, so I got hopeful (second mistake) and happy.
I waited till Thursday, where that night she said "Lets just stay friends because I am still with my boyfriend."
So I asked her what I could do to make her see how serious I was about this and she said, "You messed up too bad, its just not going to happen, you hurt me a lot brenden."
The shit didn't stop hitting the fan, that next morning, there was a discrepancy at Gamestop where we lost a wii system.
The finger of blame was pointed on me because i forgot to catch it.
I get a call from my manager yesterday saying Brenden, I don't know how Gavin (our District Manager) will take this, so brace yourself.
So Im worried what will happen when I go into work today.
Im freaking out because this is the one job I have had where I love going into work every day, and its the one thing that is keeping me alive here.
If I lose it, its goodbye Pinetop, and hello Albuquerque.
Everyone I know, gone.
Everyone I've met, gone.
Brenden, gone.
So I am trying to fix this all because I want to stay here and get money to move to portland, and I don't know if I can do that at Albuquerque...I am just having a meltdown, and probably shouldnt even be worrying, however, I will let everyone know what happens when it happens.
Thanks for reading my rant of depression, and I hope you can find anything in here that may hint at why I am getting this stuff happening to me...
till next time everyone, for science.
Its a terrible inconvenience for me.
I know its been a horribly long time since the last time I blogged, and I am truly sorry that the first one in a long time is gonna be a depression rant, it's all I have right now. (Litterally)
I don't know what I did to deserve what is going on, so I will fill you in and maybe you will get some ideas for me to share or something.
So here it goes:
Last week, I had a dream that I saw my ex Vanessa and we started living together again. For those of you who do not know who this is, she is my ex that drank a lot, and I finally was able to get her to stop, but for some ungodly reason, I broke up with her.
Dumbest mistake i've ever made.
So her and I were living together as a family, happy. And I woke up from this dream to a text from her saying we should hang out.
My heart jumped with joy, so I said yeah but it would have to be next tuesday (this weeks tuesday) and we planned it out.
I got it all in my head that I could get her back, and that was my first mistake.
As I get there I see how beautiful she is, but Christie texts me saying she has a boyfriend...my heart dropped from the top of my chest, to my stomach.
Her boyfriend is this guy who drags her to parties and gets her to drink and smoke weed with him. And so I think to myself...well thats just not fair.
I was good for her, I was good to her, I was happy with her.
So I talked to her seeing if I could possibly have another chance with her and she said she would think about it, so I got hopeful (second mistake) and happy.
I waited till Thursday, where that night she said "Lets just stay friends because I am still with my boyfriend."
So I asked her what I could do to make her see how serious I was about this and she said, "You messed up too bad, its just not going to happen, you hurt me a lot brenden."
The shit didn't stop hitting the fan, that next morning, there was a discrepancy at Gamestop where we lost a wii system.
The finger of blame was pointed on me because i forgot to catch it.
I get a call from my manager yesterday saying Brenden, I don't know how Gavin (our District Manager) will take this, so brace yourself.
So Im worried what will happen when I go into work today.
Im freaking out because this is the one job I have had where I love going into work every day, and its the one thing that is keeping me alive here.
If I lose it, its goodbye Pinetop, and hello Albuquerque.
Everyone I know, gone.
Everyone I've met, gone.
Brenden, gone.
So I am trying to fix this all because I want to stay here and get money to move to portland, and I don't know if I can do that at Albuquerque...I am just having a meltdown, and probably shouldnt even be worrying, however, I will let everyone know what happens when it happens.
Thanks for reading my rant of depression, and I hope you can find anything in here that may hint at why I am getting this stuff happening to me...
till next time everyone, for science.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Good evening, Dear reader.
Life....has never been better for me. (with the exception of one or two things which will be covered later in the post)
I mean, who else can say they work at GameStop in pinetop/showlow?
Well....granted it is in pinetop/showlow.....hmmm....never mind.
Still, Gamestop! Me? Working there, I mean holy crap, its the perfect job for me if you know me. (Bit o' a video game nerd...ok so a huge video game nerd)
So yeah, its awesome, plus I've been pulling 40 hour/week!
Talk about awesome paycheck=D
Now the perfect job will let me get my effing piercings back, but that can wait for a while, at least I get tattoos and whatnot at gamestop, which is shweeet!
On to the next order of business;
The two things that I find a bit troubling in my life...sad to admit, one of them is my celibacy.
The reason I am sad about this isn't because it's broken (more or less the opposite) I want it broken.
I want a girlfriend, and it is so hard to find a decent one, it is just aggravating because I don't want to be alone anymore...god I sound stupid saying that.
I don't know, just over the past few weeks I've been really thinking, "Hey...you know what would be awesome right now? Someone to sleep next to...or even just someone to talk to and tell them I care about them..."
And I have this empty feeling about it...everytime I think about it, I just really want to find someone, hmmm well thats just it for that part.
Second is the fact that I really want to be out on my own, not living with my sister.
Nothing against her, I just really want to try to live by myself and see how that could go, you know?
I'm just really nervous because what if I can't do that by myself? What if I am too dependent on others?
I don't want to have to live with someone for the rest of my life unless it's my wife, and I want her to depend on me, not vice versa.
I want to be strong willed and strong hearted, but I feel weak at the thought of being alone.
I want the money and the financial stability that I have been given since I was born till I was 19.
It's terrible to think about this because its stressing me out so much.
For god sakes, I feel like I am about to get shingles again...ugh.
Life is hard blogger/passerby, it always will be.
So why can't I get it through my head that no matter what happens, it will be hard, but I will always have a safety plan with my family.
I will always have someone to fall back on.
Someone to go to.
Someone to live with.
But thats just it, I don't want to live with my family forever, I want to live with a family I started.
A family with someone I connect with on much deeper levels than anyone could imagine.
I want a family like my family.
But life is hard, and I need to wait until I find that perfect girl.
Wherever she is.
And find that perfect balance of life.
Wherever that is.
And I need to find all of this on my own, no help besides words of encouragement from my family and my friends.
Well thats about that for now, Im tired, going into work at 10 tomorrow (wooo!) and buying a PS3 soon, and I am excited for that=D
So farewell, please don't be distraught by my troubling times, It's just me venting.
Goodnight all, and remember, if it's not for you, it's FOR SCIENCE!!!!
I mean, who else can say they work at GameStop in pinetop/showlow?
Well....granted it is in pinetop/showlow.....hmmm....never mind.
Still, Gamestop! Me? Working there, I mean holy crap, its the perfect job for me if you know me. (Bit o' a video game nerd...ok so a huge video game nerd)
So yeah, its awesome, plus I've been pulling 40 hour/week!
Talk about awesome paycheck=D
Now the perfect job will let me get my effing piercings back, but that can wait for a while, at least I get tattoos and whatnot at gamestop, which is shweeet!
On to the next order of business;
The two things that I find a bit troubling in my life...sad to admit, one of them is my celibacy.
The reason I am sad about this isn't because it's broken (more or less the opposite) I want it broken.
I want a girlfriend, and it is so hard to find a decent one, it is just aggravating because I don't want to be alone anymore...god I sound stupid saying that.
I don't know, just over the past few weeks I've been really thinking, "Hey...you know what would be awesome right now? Someone to sleep next to...or even just someone to talk to and tell them I care about them..."
And I have this empty feeling about it...everytime I think about it, I just really want to find someone, hmmm well thats just it for that part.
Second is the fact that I really want to be out on my own, not living with my sister.
Nothing against her, I just really want to try to live by myself and see how that could go, you know?
I'm just really nervous because what if I can't do that by myself? What if I am too dependent on others?
I don't want to have to live with someone for the rest of my life unless it's my wife, and I want her to depend on me, not vice versa.
I want to be strong willed and strong hearted, but I feel weak at the thought of being alone.
I want the money and the financial stability that I have been given since I was born till I was 19.
It's terrible to think about this because its stressing me out so much.
For god sakes, I feel like I am about to get shingles again...ugh.
Life is hard blogger/passerby, it always will be.
So why can't I get it through my head that no matter what happens, it will be hard, but I will always have a safety plan with my family.
I will always have someone to fall back on.
Someone to go to.
Someone to live with.
But thats just it, I don't want to live with my family forever, I want to live with a family I started.
A family with someone I connect with on much deeper levels than anyone could imagine.
I want a family like my family.
But life is hard, and I need to wait until I find that perfect girl.
Wherever she is.
And find that perfect balance of life.
Wherever that is.
And I need to find all of this on my own, no help besides words of encouragement from my family and my friends.
Well thats about that for now, Im tired, going into work at 10 tomorrow (wooo!) and buying a PS3 soon, and I am excited for that=D
So farewell, please don't be distraught by my troubling times, It's just me venting.
Goodnight all, and remember, if it's not for you, it's FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
Linkin Park
It has come to my attention that Linkin Park has been getting a lot of bad press from people.
Now this is not a "I'm defending Linkin Park as a fanboy and all you have to say is false if it's bad about them!" post.
This is a post about my own personal views and opinions on Linkin Park, for I have been listening to them ever since Meteora and Hybrid Theory.
Now I don't know how many people out there listened to Linkin Park's first few albums, but they are fantastic as far as Rock goes.
Chester Bennington has one of the best voices I have ever listened to, and his screaming is phenomenal.
Mike Shinoda is one of the greatest rapper/singer types out there (...and is he chinese? Japanese? What the crap is he?)
Everyone in the band has this amazing talent to them ever since the first album, and who honestly doesn't know all of the lyrics to "In The End", that was a strong radio song, but hey, still great to this day.
So with Meteora, they busted that one out, and a lot more people bought those songs, including myself.
Great songs on the album as well as Hybrid Theory, and again, as far as Rock goes, they are fantastic.
However, the thing is, once Minutes to Midnight came out, people were horribly disgusted with what they produced.
I liked Minutes to Midnight, no matter how "Emo" people called it.
Yes it had some depressing-like songs, but all in all, it was great.
The way the music was coordinated and the lyrics were beautiful in my opinion.
So people see this album as "Linkin Parks downfall" just because it's a little bit less rock than their last ablum?
I may be exaggerating with the downfall part, but again, just opinions.
Fast forward a bit now to this year, in comes A Thousand Suns, newest album, and great sound.
However, yet again, people are saying that this album is "shit" compared to other albums.
Why compare the seperate albums? I mean yeah, it's different then the last albums...but it is supposed to be.
I guess you can't ever win when your in a band producing albums.
You'll have one "amazing first platinum album" and then maybe a second one.
But here is the real kicker, on your next albums, people could say things like, "Oh this doesn't sound anything like their first album."
So you go back to the same sound as your first album and people start saying, "They are so not being original, this is just the same crap from the first album!"
So then you try one final attempt, change your sound again, and then the people start with yelling, "SELLOUTS!"
There is pretty much the only solution, and either way you lose, you will never have anything as good as the first albums because people don't like hearing new things or old things, they pretty much wont be satisfied at all with your work, no matter how much heart you put into it.
God damn internet jading everyone.
Well thats it for right now, so until then, listen, love, and FOR SCIENCE!!
Now this is not a "I'm defending Linkin Park as a fanboy and all you have to say is false if it's bad about them!" post.
This is a post about my own personal views and opinions on Linkin Park, for I have been listening to them ever since Meteora and Hybrid Theory.
Now I don't know how many people out there listened to Linkin Park's first few albums, but they are fantastic as far as Rock goes.
Chester Bennington has one of the best voices I have ever listened to, and his screaming is phenomenal.
Mike Shinoda is one of the greatest rapper/singer types out there (...and is he chinese? Japanese? What the crap is he?)
Everyone in the band has this amazing talent to them ever since the first album, and who honestly doesn't know all of the lyrics to "In The End", that was a strong radio song, but hey, still great to this day.
So with Meteora, they busted that one out, and a lot more people bought those songs, including myself.
Great songs on the album as well as Hybrid Theory, and again, as far as Rock goes, they are fantastic.
However, the thing is, once Minutes to Midnight came out, people were horribly disgusted with what they produced.
I liked Minutes to Midnight, no matter how "Emo" people called it.
Yes it had some depressing-like songs, but all in all, it was great.
The way the music was coordinated and the lyrics were beautiful in my opinion.
Jump when they tell you that they wanna see Jumpin'
Fuck that I wanna see some fist pumpin'
Risk somethin, take back whats yours
Say somethin that you know they might attack you for.Thats just me though, love the lyrics.
So people see this album as "Linkin Parks downfall" just because it's a little bit less rock than their last ablum?
I may be exaggerating with the downfall part, but again, just opinions.
Fast forward a bit now to this year, in comes A Thousand Suns, newest album, and great sound.
However, yet again, people are saying that this album is "shit" compared to other albums.
Why compare the seperate albums? I mean yeah, it's different then the last albums...but it is supposed to be.
I guess you can't ever win when your in a band producing albums.
You'll have one "amazing first platinum album" and then maybe a second one.
But here is the real kicker, on your next albums, people could say things like, "Oh this doesn't sound anything like their first album."
So you go back to the same sound as your first album and people start saying, "They are so not being original, this is just the same crap from the first album!"
So then you try one final attempt, change your sound again, and then the people start with yelling, "SELLOUTS!"
There is pretty much the only solution, and either way you lose, you will never have anything as good as the first albums because people don't like hearing new things or old things, they pretty much wont be satisfied at all with your work, no matter how much heart you put into it.
God damn internet jading everyone.
Well thats it for right now, so until then, listen, love, and FOR SCIENCE!!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
I've backed myself between a hard place and a pillow!
You're probably asking yourself what this means.
You know the saying, "In between a rock and a hard place," well that just means that you're stuck between two really bad scenarios.
Seeing as how I feel quite optimistic today, I see myself as being faced with two different scenarios, a good one, and a bad one. Which one do you think I'm gonna choose?
The good scenario is already being fulfilled at the moment, I'm leaving Walmart (just had my "sort of" last day today, and I am now away from that horrible terrible job of doom!) and going to GameStop, which is (for all I know) progressively better than Walmart.
However the bad thing is, I am dropping from 9 dollars an hour to....*deep breath* 7.50....sad I know.
But it will be so much better when I show them how awesome of an employee I am, and I will get a raise before I know it=D
On to other news!
It is the night before Halloween, Saturday, and I am doing nothing except for sitting at my house...blogging....about how I am just sitting at my house on a Saturday night! How excruciatingly exciting right?!
Oh did I also mention that last night I went and saw Paranormal Activity 2 with my best friend Kaitlin?!
I didn't tell you....thats weird, cause I made a mental note to tell you guys that I saw it....have you ever had one of those moments where you were gonna tell someone about something, but you never got around to it, but you thought you already told them thus causing a sort of fake deja vu?
Well anyways, back to my original story, last night, my dearest best friend Kaitlin came into town and we decided to have an awesome friend date! Filled with ridiculously creamy french vanilla hot chocolate latte stuff and Paranormal Activity 2 (bad idea if anyone remembers how scared I was of the first one) (I thought it was real)
So we get ourselves some awesome (not really) coffee from maverick, and it was the creamiest coffee ever! I mean holy crap!
Then we I start to call up the theater to see times for "Let Me In" (the remake of an amazing russain movie "let me in") but they kept giving me the wrong times! So frustrating haha.
We then drive to the theater only to decide to go see...dun dun duhhhh!!! PA 2!
It starts at 9 45, and its only about 9 by now, so off to the house to converse with my roomates!
That was pretty fun, Nester and LoLo were playing Sims 3 and I was watching them and we were all laughing and joking and what have you.
Then 9 45 came around, movie time!
We get into the theater to see the last of the Saw 3D trailer (another movie I must see) and the movie starts.
*Ahem* let me say this to you all, the first paranormal activity, I thought was real events, and it scared me to death...I couldn't sleep for literally 3 days...it was bad haha.
So we are watching the movie and by the end, I think both of us were shaking, and I was backed up all the way on my seat with my knees up to my face..so bad haha.
I then drive Kaitlin back to her car, and we say our goodbyes.
Off to the house!
Where...everyone is drunk haha.
I come in the house, Ness and Brit are on the computers, and Logan and Sam (Brit's friend) playing magic.
Logan looks up and before I could utter a "H-" Logan screams "SHOTS!"
Haha, great great way to be welcomed in to my house.
So what do I do....haha shots.
Only a couple inside a drink, and I didn't get that wasted, just a wee bit buzzed.
Logan and I started playing Counter Strike drunk, and wow...just....wow.
Once all of this was done, my computer yet again crashes with the "HyperTransport flood sync error" ugh...(Im about to punch baby orphan puppies with kittens, thats how angry I was haha)
So after all of this we conclude, New motherboard! We are gonna test it out with this...hopefully it will work.
I don't really have much else to blog about other than all of that, so sorry for the shorter blog, but I really am stumped haha.
So goodnight all passerbys and bloggers, and untill next time remember:
FOR SCIENCE!!!!!
You know the saying, "In between a rock and a hard place," well that just means that you're stuck between two really bad scenarios.
Seeing as how I feel quite optimistic today, I see myself as being faced with two different scenarios, a good one, and a bad one. Which one do you think I'm gonna choose?
The good scenario is already being fulfilled at the moment, I'm leaving Walmart (just had my "sort of" last day today, and I am now away from that horrible terrible job of doom!) and going to GameStop, which is (for all I know) progressively better than Walmart.
However the bad thing is, I am dropping from 9 dollars an hour to....*deep breath* 7.50....sad I know.
But it will be so much better when I show them how awesome of an employee I am, and I will get a raise before I know it=D
On to other news!
It is the night before Halloween, Saturday, and I am doing nothing except for sitting at my house...blogging....about how I am just sitting at my house on a Saturday night! How excruciatingly exciting right?!
Oh did I also mention that last night I went and saw Paranormal Activity 2 with my best friend Kaitlin?!
I didn't tell you....thats weird, cause I made a mental note to tell you guys that I saw it....have you ever had one of those moments where you were gonna tell someone about something, but you never got around to it, but you thought you already told them thus causing a sort of fake deja vu?
Well anyways, back to my original story, last night, my dearest best friend Kaitlin came into town and we decided to have an awesome friend date! Filled with ridiculously creamy french vanilla hot chocolate latte stuff and Paranormal Activity 2 (bad idea if anyone remembers how scared I was of the first one) (I thought it was real)
So we get ourselves some awesome (not really) coffee from maverick, and it was the creamiest coffee ever! I mean holy crap!
Then we I start to call up the theater to see times for "Let Me In" (the remake of an amazing russain movie "let me in") but they kept giving me the wrong times! So frustrating haha.
We then drive to the theater only to decide to go see...dun dun duhhhh!!! PA 2!
It starts at 9 45, and its only about 9 by now, so off to the house to converse with my roomates!
That was pretty fun, Nester and LoLo were playing Sims 3 and I was watching them and we were all laughing and joking and what have you.
Then 9 45 came around, movie time!
We get into the theater to see the last of the Saw 3D trailer (another movie I must see) and the movie starts.
*Ahem* let me say this to you all, the first paranormal activity, I thought was real events, and it scared me to death...I couldn't sleep for literally 3 days...it was bad haha.
So we are watching the movie and by the end, I think both of us were shaking, and I was backed up all the way on my seat with my knees up to my face..so bad haha.
I then drive Kaitlin back to her car, and we say our goodbyes.
Off to the house!
Where...everyone is drunk haha.
I come in the house, Ness and Brit are on the computers, and Logan and Sam (Brit's friend) playing magic.
Logan looks up and before I could utter a "H-" Logan screams "SHOTS!"
Haha, great great way to be welcomed in to my house.
So what do I do....haha shots.
Only a couple inside a drink, and I didn't get that wasted, just a wee bit buzzed.
Logan and I started playing Counter Strike drunk, and wow...just....wow.
Once all of this was done, my computer yet again crashes with the "HyperTransport flood sync error" ugh...(Im about to punch baby orphan puppies with kittens, thats how angry I was haha)
So after all of this we conclude, New motherboard! We are gonna test it out with this...hopefully it will work.
I don't really have much else to blog about other than all of that, so sorry for the shorter blog, but I really am stumped haha.
So goodnight all passerbys and bloggers, and untill next time remember:
FOR SCIENCE!!!!!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Be Warned, this is a straight Rant from Your's truly.
(There may be funny parts in this, but all around, this is a serious...ok, semi-serious blog about somethings that have been on my mind.)
Dear Lesbian Feminist Lady at Walmart,
I'm sorry to use such a derogatory label for you, but since I do not know what your actual name is, and since you referred to me as a "man bitch" I am forced to give you what you deserve by being as shallow minded as you were to me without even knowing who I am. I am sorry to be such a hypocrite, but you have no common decency to see what my name was on my NAME TAG that is located right in front of your retinas.
I realize that you went lesbian for a reason, whether or not the reason was because a man hurt your, or you just never really liked men is not my business, but realize one thing, not all men are the same, and you shouldn't be so quick to judge someone just by their genitalia, I sure didn't judge you when you crashed into walmart with your giant "Hulk Holgan-Esque" stature, and your "all men are idiots" mind set. In fact, my first thought was, "How can I help this lady out today to make sure she leaves happy?" But no, you didn't let me help, instead you said "Hey man bitch, stop your bull-shittin' and fetch me another wagon."
First off...fetch you? Fetch you?!
Who says that, I am not a dog, in fact, I walk on two feet, have imposable thumbs, and can utter phrases such as, "Sure, I would love to get you your cart you Hogan bitch."
Second, I was not "bull-shittin," I was actually talking to my MANAGER about my last hours of work, and that I was glad I could be with Walmart for so long.
And lastly, it's called a Cart, not a wagon. Wagons have not been used since the 18th century! I mean...besides Volkswagons, but those are automobiles, something a woman of your physique should be well acquainted with. Again, sorry for being so quick to stereotype you, but you give me no choice.
We are human beings! And yes I may seem like a hypocrite for saying this, but we all need to get along because we are all stuck together on a GIANT FLOATING ROCK IN THE MIDDLE OF SPACE! We are definitely a short living species who jump to way too many conclusions, but thats just the thing, Life is way to short to be angry with one another.
Also, on one last note miss, Without men, you wouldnt have been here. To be fair, without women, men would not be here either, but without the heterosexuals that inhabit parts of our planet who enjoy intercourse and try to conceive babies, you would not have girlfriends, thought I don't see how a girl would want to date you. Not because of your physique because I know a lot of people who like that type of body, but because of your narrow minded shallowness that envelops your soul.
Dear girl who is dating him because she can fix him,
No...you can not fix him. You never will be able to, and once you realize this, you can finally be happy.
People don't fix other people, I know this from experience, people have to fix themselves. Sure you can support the fixing, but don't say you will fix him.
If he (or she) is a cheater, they have to get over that stupid childish act by themselves, you dating them will not help, it will just give them another persons heart to break because they can because you let them. Do you see the vicious circle yet? Here, let me clarify, You date Him because He is troubled, He brings Trouble to You, You take the Trouble He brings because You are trying to Fix Him, which allows Him to keep doing it, making You want to fix Him cause he Hurt You!
Listen to me when I say this, you can have someone better, someone who you deserve and who deserves you, you can't hang yourself back because your trying to fight a lost cause.
Lost causes are good for one thing, dragging you down to their level until you are no more.
Don't try to justify yourself by saying "Im dating him cause I can fix him" when in all reality, your doing it because you love to get hurt, and you hate to be with someone who will treat you right, because you do not know how to handle someone being nice to you.
There is nothing you can do, I promise you. Everyone has their problems, and having people to support them is good, but in the end, THEY NEED TO HELP THEMSELVES!
This is all, just please think about it and the vicious cycle you are in.
Dear girl who wont date him because it will ruin your friendship,
Do not even try to ever justify this, I mean...there is nothing more ridiculous then telling him "No, I treasure our friendship too much, I don't want that ruined."
Tell him, "No, I'm am sorry, but I don't like you in that way." It may hurt like a bitch for him to hear that, but it's better then hearing some widely cliche terrible excuse.
Or here is something that's going to probably blow your mind, be with him and see how compatible you are because you always say you get along so well whenever you hang out.
Do not even say, "Some girl will be lucky to be with you one day." Because you know that is the most used cliche ever.
If "some girl" would be lucky to be with him, then why not you? There can't be some physical condition that prevents you from being with him, some kind of skin irritation that would show up after saying Yes to him asking you out. If there is, then it can't be because of friendship, its probably something very wrong with your skin and you should get it checked out.
You have a short life, live it! Don't date the guys who you know will treat you like shit, because thats all they will ever do. I have been the best friend in many situations, so yes, every night I hear the same thing, "He is such a dick, your so nice for listening to me, I know your always gonna be here for me."
If we are so nice for listening, and your always going to be here for us, and you know that we will always be there for you, give it a shot. What have you got to lose?
Every last relationship, excluding the ones that were...poisonous to me, I am still friends, good friends, with that person. Ask them for yourself and see that maybe, just maybe things will work out between you and him, and even if they don't, you will still be friends, maybe not as good, but give it time and you will grow back to being best friends trust me.
At the end of this, I would like to point out that before I start the conclusion that this may seem hypocritical and I'm very sorry but it is something I have to say.
We are all human, we live on the same giant rock in space, and we all die in the end.
Life is too short to be an aggravated Walmart or just a customer in a store, a person stuck in a horrible circle of poison, or thinking that just because your best friends with someone makes them not able to be a boyfriend or girlfriend to you.
There will always be beauty in everything you do, life is a wondrous thing when you live it, and if you think about it, you are one in a trillion beings who live on a planet that (as far as we know) has the most intelligent and rapidly growing species ever. It is a miracle that you were born here, instead of a tiny speck on an unknown planet, but even if you were that, you would still be helping life along and helping evolution somewhere else.
So smile, laugh, date, and enjoy life.
Do what pleases you, and live for yourself, no one else.
Because in the end, you are where your at because its where you wanted to be.
For Science..
Dear Lesbian Feminist Lady at Walmart,
I'm sorry to use such a derogatory label for you, but since I do not know what your actual name is, and since you referred to me as a "man bitch" I am forced to give you what you deserve by being as shallow minded as you were to me without even knowing who I am. I am sorry to be such a hypocrite, but you have no common decency to see what my name was on my NAME TAG that is located right in front of your retinas.
I realize that you went lesbian for a reason, whether or not the reason was because a man hurt your, or you just never really liked men is not my business, but realize one thing, not all men are the same, and you shouldn't be so quick to judge someone just by their genitalia, I sure didn't judge you when you crashed into walmart with your giant "Hulk Holgan-Esque" stature, and your "all men are idiots" mind set. In fact, my first thought was, "How can I help this lady out today to make sure she leaves happy?" But no, you didn't let me help, instead you said "Hey man bitch, stop your bull-shittin' and fetch me another wagon."
First off...fetch you? Fetch you?!
Who says that, I am not a dog, in fact, I walk on two feet, have imposable thumbs, and can utter phrases such as, "Sure, I would love to get you your cart you Hogan bitch."
Second, I was not "bull-shittin," I was actually talking to my MANAGER about my last hours of work, and that I was glad I could be with Walmart for so long.
And lastly, it's called a Cart, not a wagon. Wagons have not been used since the 18th century! I mean...besides Volkswagons, but those are automobiles, something a woman of your physique should be well acquainted with. Again, sorry for being so quick to stereotype you, but you give me no choice.
We are human beings! And yes I may seem like a hypocrite for saying this, but we all need to get along because we are all stuck together on a GIANT FLOATING ROCK IN THE MIDDLE OF SPACE! We are definitely a short living species who jump to way too many conclusions, but thats just the thing, Life is way to short to be angry with one another.
Also, on one last note miss, Without men, you wouldnt have been here. To be fair, without women, men would not be here either, but without the heterosexuals that inhabit parts of our planet who enjoy intercourse and try to conceive babies, you would not have girlfriends, thought I don't see how a girl would want to date you. Not because of your physique because I know a lot of people who like that type of body, but because of your narrow minded shallowness that envelops your soul.
Dear girl who is dating him because she can fix him,
No...you can not fix him. You never will be able to, and once you realize this, you can finally be happy.
People don't fix other people, I know this from experience, people have to fix themselves. Sure you can support the fixing, but don't say you will fix him.
If he (or she) is a cheater, they have to get over that stupid childish act by themselves, you dating them will not help, it will just give them another persons heart to break because they can because you let them. Do you see the vicious circle yet? Here, let me clarify, You date Him because He is troubled, He brings Trouble to You, You take the Trouble He brings because You are trying to Fix Him, which allows Him to keep doing it, making You want to fix Him cause he Hurt You!
Listen to me when I say this, you can have someone better, someone who you deserve and who deserves you, you can't hang yourself back because your trying to fight a lost cause.
Lost causes are good for one thing, dragging you down to their level until you are no more.
Don't try to justify yourself by saying "Im dating him cause I can fix him" when in all reality, your doing it because you love to get hurt, and you hate to be with someone who will treat you right, because you do not know how to handle someone being nice to you.
There is nothing you can do, I promise you. Everyone has their problems, and having people to support them is good, but in the end, THEY NEED TO HELP THEMSELVES!
This is all, just please think about it and the vicious cycle you are in.
Dear girl who wont date him because it will ruin your friendship,
Do not even try to ever justify this, I mean...there is nothing more ridiculous then telling him "No, I treasure our friendship too much, I don't want that ruined."
Tell him, "No, I'm am sorry, but I don't like you in that way." It may hurt like a bitch for him to hear that, but it's better then hearing some widely cliche terrible excuse.
Or here is something that's going to probably blow your mind, be with him and see how compatible you are because you always say you get along so well whenever you hang out.
Do not even say, "Some girl will be lucky to be with you one day." Because you know that is the most used cliche ever.
If "some girl" would be lucky to be with him, then why not you? There can't be some physical condition that prevents you from being with him, some kind of skin irritation that would show up after saying Yes to him asking you out. If there is, then it can't be because of friendship, its probably something very wrong with your skin and you should get it checked out.
You have a short life, live it! Don't date the guys who you know will treat you like shit, because thats all they will ever do. I have been the best friend in many situations, so yes, every night I hear the same thing, "He is such a dick, your so nice for listening to me, I know your always gonna be here for me."
If we are so nice for listening, and your always going to be here for us, and you know that we will always be there for you, give it a shot. What have you got to lose?
Every last relationship, excluding the ones that were...poisonous to me, I am still friends, good friends, with that person. Ask them for yourself and see that maybe, just maybe things will work out between you and him, and even if they don't, you will still be friends, maybe not as good, but give it time and you will grow back to being best friends trust me.
At the end of this, I would like to point out that before I start the conclusion that this may seem hypocritical and I'm very sorry but it is something I have to say.
We are all human, we live on the same giant rock in space, and we all die in the end.
Life is too short to be an aggravated Walmart or just a customer in a store, a person stuck in a horrible circle of poison, or thinking that just because your best friends with someone makes them not able to be a boyfriend or girlfriend to you.
There will always be beauty in everything you do, life is a wondrous thing when you live it, and if you think about it, you are one in a trillion beings who live on a planet that (as far as we know) has the most intelligent and rapidly growing species ever. It is a miracle that you were born here, instead of a tiny speck on an unknown planet, but even if you were that, you would still be helping life along and helping evolution somewhere else.
So smile, laugh, date, and enjoy life.
Do what pleases you, and live for yourself, no one else.
Because in the end, you are where your at because its where you wanted to be.
For Science..
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
List of..."Things"
So I still do not have my motherboard back, HOWEVER (I feel it necessary to occasionally add the caps locked "however," it adds meaning) the new motherboard is on truck for delivery, so I should get it back tonight around 6:30, which is thirty effing minutes before I have to go to work....stupid UPS.
Until the time of my new computer piece arriving, I will entertain myself (as well as some of you) by posting:
BRENDO'S LIST OF THINGS THAT HE DEFINES AS THE PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS OF A POTENTIAL GIRLFRIEND!!!!!
(or shorter)
BRENDO'S LIST OF PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS!!!!
So here we go:
(First off, this list is just a bunch of things I feel the need to have in a girlfriend so that her and I have either common ground, or just makes her that much more perfect for me, this is all my own opinions, so please do not slander this with filth saying "Oh brenden, your not gonna find that, that is stupid, you might as well just never date again." So yeah, stay at a professional level while reading this, thank you)
A girl who would be perfect for me:
Does not find it necessary to ALWAYS be dressed up, and will on occasion just spend the day in her pajamas with me.
Will always find humor in things that are possibly not funny to anyone else.
Has a sense of humor that either is close to mine, or greater than mine.
Will watch cartoons with me, even if we are older than the demographic the show is trying to reach.
Doesn't mind the fact that I will always watch, and laugh continuously at any given Family Guy moment.
Doesn't mind that I fanatically watch Family Guy almost daily.
Has a sense of art, and has her own opinion of what is beautiful.
Wont force her opinions on anyone, and who will go with the flow unless that flow is turning out to be something horrifically wrong.
Wont try to change anything about me, as I wont try to change the slightest thing about her.
Is a huge cuddler.
Will watch not only meteor showers with me, but lightning strikes, rain, and listen to thunder with me.
Wants kids SOMEDAY, not immediately, and at least when we are 24 or older.
Loves to listen to any kind of music, and is open for new sounds/will share her songs with me.
Will love to go out to a fancy restaurant every once in a while, but greatly appreciates home cooked meals, and sitting down talking/listening to music/watching cheesy movies with each other.
Watches Anime, and likes it not just because I like it, but because she is a genuine fan of it.
Will watch all of the crappy horror movies I love to watch because she loves the bonding time we have, and the jumpy parts that get us closer to each other.
Feels safe knowing that I am always there, even when I'm not there physically.
Loves my family as much as I do because they are a part of me.
Doesn't mind that some days I get too overwhelmed and need help sometimes.
Wont mind telling me her problems because she knows I will do everything I can to make it better.
Thinks about me, but at the same time, has other things on her mind.
Knows what she wants, but not exactly what she wants.
Has her days where she feels like crying.
Knows that on those days, I have both a shoulder and chest for her to cry on.
Knows that I will always be there to comfort her in her time of need, and give her space if she needs it.
Has and understanding that no one is perfect, but there are things that make people perfect in their own way.
(again, this is just SOME opinions of mine, and its not necessary that you have all these factors, just some would be nice, cause no one is perfect, and I understand that.)
So thats my blog for the day...sorry its not a huuuge list or anything, but everything else is kind of...well just stuff that I would need to see during the relationship, like the little things she does, but those aren't judging factors, those are just things I love to see=]
On one other note, Two days from now, I see if I get the job at gamestop! wooo!!! Im pretty excited, and I really think I got this job, but I dont want to be to over confident. Anywho!
Next blog I post, will be on my computer instead of Brittan's! Yay!
This may not mean anything to anyone, but I love having my own computer soooo...yeah=]
Untill the next day I release unto all of you the words of Brendo's mind....FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Until the time of my new computer piece arriving, I will entertain myself (as well as some of you) by posting:
BRENDO'S LIST OF THINGS THAT HE DEFINES AS THE PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS OF A POTENTIAL GIRLFRIEND!!!!!
(or shorter)
BRENDO'S LIST OF PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS!!!!
So here we go:
(First off, this list is just a bunch of things I feel the need to have in a girlfriend so that her and I have either common ground, or just makes her that much more perfect for me, this is all my own opinions, so please do not slander this with filth saying "Oh brenden, your not gonna find that, that is stupid, you might as well just never date again." So yeah, stay at a professional level while reading this, thank you)
A girl who would be perfect for me:
Does not find it necessary to ALWAYS be dressed up, and will on occasion just spend the day in her pajamas with me.
Will always find humor in things that are possibly not funny to anyone else.
Has a sense of humor that either is close to mine, or greater than mine.
Will watch cartoons with me, even if we are older than the demographic the show is trying to reach.
Doesn't mind the fact that I will always watch, and laugh continuously at any given Family Guy moment.
Doesn't mind that I fanatically watch Family Guy almost daily.
Has a sense of art, and has her own opinion of what is beautiful.
Wont force her opinions on anyone, and who will go with the flow unless that flow is turning out to be something horrifically wrong.
Wont try to change anything about me, as I wont try to change the slightest thing about her.
Is a huge cuddler.
Will watch not only meteor showers with me, but lightning strikes, rain, and listen to thunder with me.
Wants kids SOMEDAY, not immediately, and at least when we are 24 or older.
Loves to listen to any kind of music, and is open for new sounds/will share her songs with me.
Will love to go out to a fancy restaurant every once in a while, but greatly appreciates home cooked meals, and sitting down talking/listening to music/watching cheesy movies with each other.
Watches Anime, and likes it not just because I like it, but because she is a genuine fan of it.
Will watch all of the crappy horror movies I love to watch because she loves the bonding time we have, and the jumpy parts that get us closer to each other.
Feels safe knowing that I am always there, even when I'm not there physically.
Loves my family as much as I do because they are a part of me.
Doesn't mind that some days I get too overwhelmed and need help sometimes.
Wont mind telling me her problems because she knows I will do everything I can to make it better.
Thinks about me, but at the same time, has other things on her mind.
Knows what she wants, but not exactly what she wants.
Has her days where she feels like crying.
Knows that on those days, I have both a shoulder and chest for her to cry on.
Knows that I will always be there to comfort her in her time of need, and give her space if she needs it.
Has and understanding that no one is perfect, but there are things that make people perfect in their own way.
(again, this is just SOME opinions of mine, and its not necessary that you have all these factors, just some would be nice, cause no one is perfect, and I understand that.)
So thats my blog for the day...sorry its not a huuuge list or anything, but everything else is kind of...well just stuff that I would need to see during the relationship, like the little things she does, but those aren't judging factors, those are just things I love to see=]
On one other note, Two days from now, I see if I get the job at gamestop! wooo!!! Im pretty excited, and I really think I got this job, but I dont want to be to over confident. Anywho!
Next blog I post, will be on my computer instead of Brittan's! Yay!
This may not mean anything to anyone, but I love having my own computer soooo...yeah=]
Untill the next day I release unto all of you the words of Brendo's mind....FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Everything falls to earth like a tetris block to the grid.
What I mean is eventually everyone is gonna have to realize they live in a shared world, but they control where they end up, its not just random events, its working towards the goal you want. (just a random thought...what can ya do?)
So today was kinda interesting, it started out pretty normal.
I woke up around 12:30 and went out to see if my computer was working. (Sadly I have ran into a bit of a snag with my new compy)
Its been running this error from my motherboard where it restarts the system whenever I start to play a game. So I have to send in my brand effing new motherboard and get another new motherboard. (Hopefully one that will work and overclock)
So after all of that, I was just sitting around watching Death Note (fantastic anime) and then I got the random instinct to do the dishes, WOOO!!
So I spent about 30 minutes working on the dishes, which was good, cause It got my mind off of whatever its been thinking for the past couple of days. (My mind has been throwing a stupid reoccuring nightmare my way, the likes of which I really don't like.)
Sleep really hasn't been an option for me.
Anywho!
After dishes, I decided to start up some laundry, which was good cause my sheets and pillowcases needed a good washing. (mmmm warm blankets)
And I got a load of just some clothes in, and so I have some clean clothes, a sweater, and clean working clothes thank god! (cause walmart is soooo clean) (sarcasm)
And then later that night (about 2 or 3 hours ago) I decided, "Hey! I need to make a resume for the GameStop interview tomorrow!"
And so, Kick Ass Resume was born! (Logan helped me out cause I was...a little under the bar)
So I printed that out, figured out what I will wear for the interview. (Casual, long sleeve silver shirt, maybe a tie, some kick ass pants, and shaved face)
I will get that job=D
As for being on a certain social connection website...well interesting things happened:
So today was kinda interesting, it started out pretty normal.
I woke up around 12:30 and went out to see if my computer was working. (Sadly I have ran into a bit of a snag with my new compy)
Its been running this error from my motherboard where it restarts the system whenever I start to play a game. So I have to send in my brand effing new motherboard and get another new motherboard. (Hopefully one that will work and overclock)
So after all of that, I was just sitting around watching Death Note (fantastic anime) and then I got the random instinct to do the dishes, WOOO!!
So I spent about 30 minutes working on the dishes, which was good, cause It got my mind off of whatever its been thinking for the past couple of days. (My mind has been throwing a stupid reoccuring nightmare my way, the likes of which I really don't like.)
Sleep really hasn't been an option for me.
Anywho!
After dishes, I decided to start up some laundry, which was good cause my sheets and pillowcases needed a good washing. (mmmm warm blankets)
And I got a load of just some clothes in, and so I have some clean clothes, a sweater, and clean working clothes thank god! (cause walmart is soooo clean) (sarcasm)
And then later that night (about 2 or 3 hours ago) I decided, "Hey! I need to make a resume for the GameStop interview tomorrow!"
And so, Kick Ass Resume was born! (Logan helped me out cause I was...a little under the bar)
So I printed that out, figured out what I will wear for the interview. (Casual, long sleeve silver shirt, maybe a tie, some kick ass pants, and shaved face)
I will get that job=D
As for being on a certain social connection website...well interesting things happened:
Brenden Maxwell Pyper "Close your eyes and I'll kiss you, tomorrow I'll miss you. Remember I'll always be true. And then while I'm away, I'll write home everyday, and I'll send all my lovin' to you."
So as you can see, some random guy named "Bobby" called me gay, and yes, two others did, but thats just how they are.
No one discriminates against anyone they don't know like that, let alone using derrogatory forms of abusive words, which is why I apologized for using the terms "douche-fuck" and "tool" because that just lowered me.
That was something that happened to me on facebook today, and it was just...so stupid.
About 45 minutes later, I got this message from bobby:
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
It's What Makes "Me," Into Me.
The subtraction of the "" makes it into me.
Thought I was gonna say something motivating didn't you?
Well I wasn't, did you think this blog was here to make you happy? To...entertain you of sorts?
It's not, its here for my own amusement and entertainment.
But not really, I'm here for you guys.
Now feel special.
3.....2......1......ok your done, time to get down to business.
Remember that night when Logan, Seth, and I were making an internet website that would change the generation of interwebz?
Wellll....that didnt really get anywhere...at all really. (l did come up with a pretty awesome idea though, not gonna lie)
So we stayed up till around 4 in the morning, drinking energy drinks (I had 4) talking about what to make for a website, while stumbling.
It was indeed some great fun, but I think we weren't really going to be able to do that website thing.
But anyhow,
Hello dear blogger/passerby.
How is your day going? Mine is pretty awesome.
Last night, I totally built this computer I am using to blog on=]
Ok so...Logan helped a bit. (He pretty much did mostly everything)
Hey but I plugged in some things! So...bleh.
Anyways, new computer, its shiny, and big, and fast, and I love it=]
But, a fair silence for my mac is needed, I had that thing with me through college and it was there when I needed it.
*silence*
Ok we are back!
So I realized, while I was stumbling around yesterday, that I am quite thrilled with how my life is about to end up. (If you haven't realized by now, I stumble aloooooot!)
But you may be asking yourself, "Brenden...how is your life going good so far? We only know about your cella-be and your random happenings at Walmart. And don't you hate Walmart? Cause if that is true, then I don't see how your life could be getting any better any time soon."
Well first off, Shut up! You don't know who I am, you don't know me!
Secondly, I'm about to quit Walmart (hopefully) and get a job at Gamestop (hopefully) because my interview for that job is on the 14th of this month! And I am super excited, I'm going to get all fancy dressed, type out a resume, and show up everyone who is there! (Hopefully)
But I figure this much, if I can get a job at Gamestop, then I won't be having as random hours as I do now at Walmart, Thus enabling me to studying about 2D animation, 3D animation, art, and drawing pad art, thus allowing me to finally get something started that will give me a pay for the rest of my life, and hopefully allow me to move out of pinetop/showlow, and end up in my final destination, Toronto Canada!
Some of you may ask why canada.
Well....because, It's beautiful up there, and I am almost pretty sure that is where I belong.
So yeah, Canada, here I come=]
Another thing that is better is just life hasn't really thrown any curves at me lately...its kinda just been the same thing.
No girls to try and stop my celibacy from happening, no angry people at Walmart besides the occasional grumpy people, and best of all, no problems in the house.
Woot.
Now some of you may also be wondering about the Girls thing.
Well Jessica and I...split up a while ago because of a few factors.
1. She is 16.
2. I almost got in trouble with her parents.
3. Repeat number two, but add the potential calling of the cops on Brendo, who did nothing wrong.
4. She is 16.
Now don't you worry, I did nothing with her.
I stayed true to my cella-be, and I am still going strong.
Then after a while, I went out with Logan, Seth, and Cassy!
We saw The Social Network (which, reiterating my last post, fantastic movie!)
And I decided to work up the courage to ask Cassy out on a date.
Sadly, Brendo's little charm didn't work this time, I alas, am too young for her.
Which is ok!
No one needs to be like "Awe brendo, shes a jerk!"
No, she most certainly is not, we are still friends, and still gonna paint me up as a zombie for Halloween!
So none of this made anything awkward between us, I can still joke around with her, as can she with me.
So life is still good!
One last thing I would love to discuss with all of the video game nerds out there.
Minecraft...I don't know how many of you have played this game...but its severely addicting, and for no apparent reason!
It just is!
For those of you who have never played this or heard of it, its a game of mining, building, and crafting...oh and destroying.
You are this little pixel dude in a little pixel world (that can generate itself up to 3 times the size of planet earth) with little pixel cows, sheep, pigs, and chickens and you run around with picks and such mining for iron and everything else like gold and diamond and red stuff. But the thing is, you can pretty much make anything you want since its like using a giant lego set!
You place a block here or there, one or two more, then sooner than you think, your building a giant sky castle, or spaceship, or a mural depicting Mario from his 8-bit days!
Its just so grand!
However, there are obstacles that you must face.
These obstacles are: Lava, Zombies, Skeletons shooting arrows, Spiders, falling blocks o' doom, and last but not least...the most annoying creature out there, the creepers!
Creepers are green four legged creatures with horrifically sad faces.
The reason they are so annoying is because you will be building your epic sky fortress or anything, and all of a sudden you will hear a faint "tsssssss" sound.
Then BOOOM! All of your hard work, blown to smithereens! Oh, and on top of that, your dead.
That may seem like a game killer, but these guys are really easy to outmaneuver in the right landscape.
So you really should try this game, its like a mix between legos and video games, the perfect thing ever made!
Even the graphics are horrible, but it is meant to be horrible, it makes gameplay so much better!
So try it out=]
It's ridiculously fun, and there is a free trial at minecraft.net.
All you really get to do on that is build, there is no adventure part on it, but still, try it out=]
Untill then my dear blogger/passerby....FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Thought I was gonna say something motivating didn't you?
Well I wasn't, did you think this blog was here to make you happy? To...entertain you of sorts?
It's not, its here for my own amusement and entertainment.
But not really, I'm here for you guys.
Now feel special.
3.....2......1......ok your done, time to get down to business.
Remember that night when Logan, Seth, and I were making an internet website that would change the generation of interwebz?
Wellll....that didnt really get anywhere...at all really. (l did come up with a pretty awesome idea though, not gonna lie)
So we stayed up till around 4 in the morning, drinking energy drinks (I had 4) talking about what to make for a website, while stumbling.
It was indeed some great fun, but I think we weren't really going to be able to do that website thing.
But anyhow,
Hello dear blogger/passerby.
How is your day going? Mine is pretty awesome.
Last night, I totally built this computer I am using to blog on=]
Ok so...Logan helped a bit. (He pretty much did mostly everything)
Hey but I plugged in some things! So...bleh.
Anyways, new computer, its shiny, and big, and fast, and I love it=]
But, a fair silence for my mac is needed, I had that thing with me through college and it was there when I needed it.
*silence*
Ok we are back!
So I realized, while I was stumbling around yesterday, that I am quite thrilled with how my life is about to end up. (If you haven't realized by now, I stumble aloooooot!)
But you may be asking yourself, "Brenden...how is your life going good so far? We only know about your cella-be and your random happenings at Walmart. And don't you hate Walmart? Cause if that is true, then I don't see how your life could be getting any better any time soon."
Well first off, Shut up! You don't know who I am, you don't know me!
Secondly, I'm about to quit Walmart (hopefully) and get a job at Gamestop (hopefully) because my interview for that job is on the 14th of this month! And I am super excited, I'm going to get all fancy dressed, type out a resume, and show up everyone who is there! (Hopefully)
But I figure this much, if I can get a job at Gamestop, then I won't be having as random hours as I do now at Walmart, Thus enabling me to studying about 2D animation, 3D animation, art, and drawing pad art, thus allowing me to finally get something started that will give me a pay for the rest of my life, and hopefully allow me to move out of pinetop/showlow, and end up in my final destination, Toronto Canada!
Some of you may ask why canada.
Well....because, It's beautiful up there, and I am almost pretty sure that is where I belong.
So yeah, Canada, here I come=]
Another thing that is better is just life hasn't really thrown any curves at me lately...its kinda just been the same thing.
No girls to try and stop my celibacy from happening, no angry people at Walmart besides the occasional grumpy people, and best of all, no problems in the house.
Woot.
Now some of you may also be wondering about the Girls thing.
Well Jessica and I...split up a while ago because of a few factors.
1. She is 16.
2. I almost got in trouble with her parents.
3. Repeat number two, but add the potential calling of the cops on Brendo, who did nothing wrong.
4. She is 16.
Now don't you worry, I did nothing with her.
I stayed true to my cella-be, and I am still going strong.
Then after a while, I went out with Logan, Seth, and Cassy!
We saw The Social Network (which, reiterating my last post, fantastic movie!)
And I decided to work up the courage to ask Cassy out on a date.
Sadly, Brendo's little charm didn't work this time, I alas, am too young for her.
Which is ok!
No one needs to be like "Awe brendo, shes a jerk!"
No, she most certainly is not, we are still friends, and still gonna paint me up as a zombie for Halloween!
So none of this made anything awkward between us, I can still joke around with her, as can she with me.
So life is still good!
One last thing I would love to discuss with all of the video game nerds out there.
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| Beholdeth! In all its glory...MINECRAFT! |
It just is!
For those of you who have never played this or heard of it, its a game of mining, building, and crafting...oh and destroying.
You are this little pixel dude in a little pixel world (that can generate itself up to 3 times the size of planet earth) with little pixel cows, sheep, pigs, and chickens and you run around with picks and such mining for iron and everything else like gold and diamond and red stuff. But the thing is, you can pretty much make anything you want since its like using a giant lego set!
You place a block here or there, one or two more, then sooner than you think, your building a giant sky castle, or spaceship, or a mural depicting Mario from his 8-bit days!
Its just so grand!
However, there are obstacles that you must face.
These obstacles are: Lava, Zombies, Skeletons shooting arrows, Spiders, falling blocks o' doom, and last but not least...the most annoying creature out there, the creepers!
Creepers are green four legged creatures with horrifically sad faces.
The reason they are so annoying is because you will be building your epic sky fortress or anything, and all of a sudden you will hear a faint "tsssssss" sound.
Then BOOOM! All of your hard work, blown to smithereens! Oh, and on top of that, your dead.
That may seem like a game killer, but these guys are really easy to outmaneuver in the right landscape.
So you really should try this game, its like a mix between legos and video games, the perfect thing ever made!
Even the graphics are horrible, but it is meant to be horrible, it makes gameplay so much better!
So try it out=]
It's ridiculously fun, and there is a free trial at minecraft.net.
All you really get to do on that is build, there is no adventure part on it, but still, try it out=]
Untill then my dear blogger/passerby....FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Failing at life seems to be a predecessor into my future
I suck at keeping promises on the most of simple things like promising on blogs that I will blog on my blog more...blog....so in turn, im seeing my future being nothing but broken promises. (Me being dramatic)
But in all seriousness, I am sorry I haven't stayed true to my blogging promises to all those of you who do still read and/or keep up with my life (boring as it may be) and I mean that truly.
Especially you Kaitlin and Wade, for even commenting on this haha, I'm very glad you two are even reading this, as strange as it may be.
So my celibacy is still going on, I haven't had any sex in about a month now, which is bueno cause it means I am staying true to what I promised myself. (Good Brendo...good)
This blog has been running through my head though of what I should do more in it.
(Vidya Games, discussion on world politics, BP leaks, being socially unacceptable, or even...now stay with me on this one, music discussion!)
Those Ideas...not so good, so I am sticking with the randomness that is my mind, whatever comes to it shall be posted upon this web blog.
I know many of you first time readers, or even long time readers (cause i've been on here so long, there must be some long time readers...not) are wondering what the deal is with the parentheses.
Well I shall tell you right now...its my inner thoughts that I come up with after writing a sentence.
My inner thoughts tend to be...sarcastic, not helpful, self loathing, or aware of being awesome. (everyone needs to have a self aware thought process...)
So thats what those are for, I like to have a little voice in my blog to make it more...brendo-esque.
So currently right now, I am up at 1 in the morning, discussing with Logan and Seth what we should do for a website type thing that will get us millions of dollars...or just have fun doing. (We just saw the social network, and became inspired.)
We are bringing up a lot of ideas, some of which seem legit, others seem....really really terrible.
But we have energy drinks, and lots of ideas, and working computers...time to put this into action!
As long as I have your attention (still I hope) I would like to pass on some words of wisdom to you, I dont understand how people could hate the social network, it was quite the brilliant movie.
In my opinion anyways.
Ahh...but I digress...that was not a long statement to digress from, but whatever, its late, im tired, and stumbleupon is distracting me waaaay too much.
So I bid you all a farewell, and shall be back for much more blogging soon.
Untill then....FOR SCIENCE!!!
But in all seriousness, I am sorry I haven't stayed true to my blogging promises to all those of you who do still read and/or keep up with my life (boring as it may be) and I mean that truly.
Especially you Kaitlin and Wade, for even commenting on this haha, I'm very glad you two are even reading this, as strange as it may be.
So my celibacy is still going on, I haven't had any sex in about a month now, which is bueno cause it means I am staying true to what I promised myself. (Good Brendo...good)
This blog has been running through my head though of what I should do more in it.
(Vidya Games, discussion on world politics, BP leaks, being socially unacceptable, or even...now stay with me on this one, music discussion!)
Those Ideas...not so good, so I am sticking with the randomness that is my mind, whatever comes to it shall be posted upon this web blog.
I know many of you first time readers, or even long time readers (cause i've been on here so long, there must be some long time readers...not) are wondering what the deal is with the parentheses.
Well I shall tell you right now...its my inner thoughts that I come up with after writing a sentence.
My inner thoughts tend to be...sarcastic, not helpful, self loathing, or aware of being awesome. (everyone needs to have a self aware thought process...)
So thats what those are for, I like to have a little voice in my blog to make it more...brendo-esque.
So currently right now, I am up at 1 in the morning, discussing with Logan and Seth what we should do for a website type thing that will get us millions of dollars...or just have fun doing. (We just saw the social network, and became inspired.)
We are bringing up a lot of ideas, some of which seem legit, others seem....really really terrible.
But we have energy drinks, and lots of ideas, and working computers...time to put this into action!
As long as I have your attention (still I hope) I would like to pass on some words of wisdom to you, I dont understand how people could hate the social network, it was quite the brilliant movie.
In my opinion anyways.
Ahh...but I digress...that was not a long statement to digress from, but whatever, its late, im tired, and stumbleupon is distracting me waaaay too much.
So I bid you all a farewell, and shall be back for much more blogging soon.
Untill then....FOR SCIENCE!!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sooo.....Dear Blogger/Passerby....I apologize to you.
As it says, I am sorry....I realize I have let you all down by not updating any of you about anything! (its fun to act like people care about my celibacy)
So I have a little new thing I am going to do...which is I will only be updating on certain days, but I will let you all know if somehting happened on days previous=D (or I will just randomly post on that day.)
But I will only do big blogs like the one I will do later today every so often, but I realize I cant keep a promise of every single day doing this haha, its just...not me:P (I get too busy with games and whatnot)
So later today I will tell you all about whats been going on with Day number 23 of my Cella-be!
Until then...FOR SCIENCE!!!!
So I have a little new thing I am going to do...which is I will only be updating on certain days, but I will let you all know if somehting happened on days previous=D (or I will just randomly post on that day.)
But I will only do big blogs like the one I will do later today every so often, but I realize I cant keep a promise of every single day doing this haha, its just...not me:P (I get too busy with games and whatnot)
So later today I will tell you all about whats been going on with Day number 23 of my Cella-be!
Until then...FOR SCIENCE!!!!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Amnesia: The Dark Descent...or as I like to call it, "FUCK THIS GAME!"
Hello dear blogger/passerby,
Its me....Brenden....remember?
Sorry its been so long since my last post, I have been a bit preoccupied with the events that I posted about 3 days ago.
I am still well into my celibacy (sadly) because well...after I took that girl (Jessica) out on a date, we both decided that:
1. We should take things slow because both of us feel a connection towards each other, and thats great.
2. Both parties are quite intrigued as to why there is this awesome connection already and its only been a couple days.
3. She will be calling me B, I am calling her Jessie. (Haha, ooooo pet names. Now you know I am serious)
So in all this excitement about having someone in my life who is awesome to hang out with...I forgot to blog about my Cella-be. Last time it was day 15, so here, im going to recap what happened on days 16, 17, and 18. (so the 20th, 21st, and the 22nd)
ONTO DAY 16!!!
Nothing really exciting happened here...oh wait, I HAD AN EFFING DATE THIS DAY!!!
It started off, me waking up in the morning feeling "like P-diddy"(actually I felt groggy and out of it because I still wanted sleep..)
Then I remembered, "OH MY GOD I HAVE A GIRLS NUMBER!"
So what do I do?
Make here wait even longer (bwahahahaha)
So I do some laundry, take a shower, and then call her at 2.
No one picks up, which sucks, but I say "Ill try at 5 then"
Waited till 5, and called, then got an answer, from jessica=D (wewt)
Long story short, I asked her out on a date that night, she said yes.
I go to pick her up at her house (which is in Linden) and I greet her at her door, and soon enough, We are off.
I originally planned out an evening at Native New Yorker (Logan says that it was a good place to have a date, without it being completely a date date, so more like a "I wanna get to know you" date.)
But turns out, Jessie is a vegan. (WHO THE HELL SAW THIS COMING)
I usually bring vegan's home to my mother...
Anywho, so I ask what she would like to do, and instead of a nice date there (stay with me on this one please), We went to Shell Gas, got two coffees, and went up onto this culd-a-sack (No effing Idea how to spell this one) and we sat there and watched the stars and talked for a while.
Ultimately, we decided that we should go to my house and watch a movie.
I learn a lot about this girl in the short comings of about...2 hours, and she still wanted to talk after that while we were trying to watch the crazies.
I don't know if any of you know this, but when a movie is on the TV (and one I really like) its kinda hard for me to concentrate....baaaad thing, but whatever.
We are still talking about life and what we are wanting to do with it, and thus we came up on the thing, we will not have sex yet because we don't want to ruin anything.
Celibacy up and strong still.
So, Day 16:
Jessie, the undeniably hot vegan girl from Linden.
Oh and she is 17.
Sooooo....DAY 17:
Nothing...seriously, nothing happened today, I worked, came home at 6, called Jessie up and talked to her for a bit.
Oh and Logan and I made moist biscuits and chicken dumpling type stuff. (Be warned, baking frenzy details coming up.)
And before we started baking our moist biscuits, I had the brilliant idea of "HOLY EFF LETS MAKE SOME MUTHAEFFIN BROWNIES!"
So we did.
However, after making biscuits and chicken, we got the brownie mix out, I got all the ingredients we needed for regular brownie mix, and then we added pecans.
It started with just pecans, but we needed some more water, so Logan wondered if we could put Half and Half into our brownie mix.
OFF TO THE INTERNET!
And then he found a recipe for something to which we almost already made. We just needed:
2 extra eggs
5 tablespoons of butter
6 <insert measure amount that we did here> of cream cheese
and like 18 cups of different baking things.
So we made ourselves some cream cheese and pecan brownies.
And
they
were
AWESOME!
DAY 18!!! Second date with Jessie!
So today was the second date with Jessie.
It started by me picking her up from school for lunch (hahaha...hahah...ha...hoooo) and then picking her up after school.
To which then I got the pleasure of meeting her friends.
Cassy was pretty cool, but the dude we picked up was...ummm...a juggalo.
NOW, for you who don't know about juggalos, they are kids so obsessed with ICP, that they feel the need to call themselves this name because its "cool"
And for most of you who don't know me, I have a slight....annoyance towards ICP and their "clown posse," in fact, if I could, I would go back in time to when ICP was just starting, and I would individually call each of their mothers and make them listen to the "mad lyrics they be spittin" and hope to god they get grounded for the rest of their natural lives. (Thus stopping the "Juggalo" movement.)
If this makes you mad, I am sorry, thats just my OPINION. Not forcing it upon you (yet) but I just don't think they are that good of musicians. But to each their own right?
He was pretty much a dick the whole time we were hanging out, and it sucked, but it was ok cause I was talking to Jessie pretty much the whole time.
Then I had to work at 7 30 to 12 at wallyworld...ugh.
That was about as eventful as a statue of a garden gnome watching grass grow as snails run up and down his glassy gnome-like body.
So there is your damn recap!
I will talk about day 19 later tonight maybe hopefully, sorry again for not being up to date with my blog, again, things got in the way...good things....stay tuned.
OH RIGHT THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG!
So, there is this game that came out recently called "Amnesia: The Dark Descent."
I read the synopsis of the game and thought to myself, "Hey this will be fun, it seems dark, scary, and smart."
*Ehem* let me say this first off....FUCK THAT GAME!
You jump into the game, and immediately it gives you a warning that you should be wearing headphones, have the lights off, and the darkness set to "pretty damn dark" (its so dark sometimes, that even when I brought out the lantern in the game, no light showed up still haha.)
So you start off, stumbling your way across a castle, trying to make yourself remember that you are "Daniel," a man who apparently by his voice, is a English man from the 80's or 70's.
He is an archeologist who found an orb in Egypt while uncovering ancient ruins.
After picking up said "orb," a deadly shadow kept following him, killing everyone he encountered. (Sounds like my ex girlfriend, HAHA *budum tsh*)
So this shadow thing...turns out to be the future trying to catch up with itself because the orb daniel found was some gate to another dimension and blah blah blah.
Not knowing that the shadow could hurt me, I run into the game with a sense of false security.
Running around, opening doors, laughing, throwing plants joyfully out windows and throwing brooms into fire pits.
Fun right? Wrong.
Immediately, shit starts getting real!
You hear scary noises, you run towards the noises, you find blood, and a note you wrote yourself saying you took a potion that caused you to have Amnesia. (So if your wanting to forget what was going on...why tell yourself to go and remember everything you forgotten just so you can remember why you wanted to forget the horror behind the shadow)
So after a while of seeing random creepy monster zombies walk past my screen, I was all like...S.O.B!
Long story short, if the random creepy monster zombie sees you....he starts chasing you like there is no effing tomorrow.
Oh by the way, your completely defenseless. (Thats right, no gun, no planks of wood, no makeshift zombie hunting doom rifle to your help...just a lantern, and wits..if you have any)
So I got smacked around by Zombie number one for about...19 hours.
Then im in a sewer, and notice..."Hey..where did Zombie guy go?"
Then heard a terrible dying sound.
Stumbled into a room where, "Hey look! Zombie numbe....oh god...." (Zombie number one will be missed)
After seeing the Zombie I thought was the strongest thing alive, torn in two by something other then me, my initial reaction was "Yay! No more zombies!!!!" to which the sound of metal tearing through more metal was coming my way.
"SHIT!!!" I hide in a corner, only to see that there is yet another Zombie!
Enter in Zombie #2, now, not as smart as number 1...but he did tear number 1 in half.
Zombie 2 has a giant blade for one arm, face torn out and ripped off, and in place of his face, three eyeballs and a couple teeth....yeah....
This guy....is scary as hell, and faster than anything on the living planet. (Or in the fucked up castle your in)
So another 18 hours of solving ridiculous puzzles that shouldn't have been invented in the first place, and getting chased around corners where Zombie 2 is waiting to make some Brendo/Daniel beef stroganoff, and finally I am nearing the end of the game!
HUZZAH THE NIGHTMARE IS ALMOST OVER!!!
However, I still have to get through this part, which consists of terrible things happening to me.
Zombie ambush.
Jailed by the Zombie Ambush.
Escaping Jail.
Running for my life so that a giant red bloody boil of a mess doesn't consume me.
And then decapitating a man with a bonesaw so that I can take his head into the other dimension. (Don't even ask)
So I beat the game, immediately uninstalled the game.
And swore it off for the rest of my life.
If anyone wants a more descriptive time of my horror with this game, go ahead and comment saying that. If 10 people want me to, I will post that as a blog, along with pictures from the game.
Till then, fare thee well traveler, and until next time...FOR SCIENCE!!!!!
Its me....Brenden....remember?
Sorry its been so long since my last post, I have been a bit preoccupied with the events that I posted about 3 days ago.
I am still well into my celibacy (sadly) because well...after I took that girl (Jessica) out on a date, we both decided that:
1. We should take things slow because both of us feel a connection towards each other, and thats great.
2. Both parties are quite intrigued as to why there is this awesome connection already and its only been a couple days.
3. She will be calling me B, I am calling her Jessie. (Haha, ooooo pet names. Now you know I am serious)
So in all this excitement about having someone in my life who is awesome to hang out with...I forgot to blog about my Cella-be. Last time it was day 15, so here, im going to recap what happened on days 16, 17, and 18. (so the 20th, 21st, and the 22nd)
ONTO DAY 16!!!
Nothing really exciting happened here...oh wait, I HAD AN EFFING DATE THIS DAY!!!
It started off, me waking up in the morning feeling "like P-diddy"(actually I felt groggy and out of it because I still wanted sleep..)
Then I remembered, "OH MY GOD I HAVE A GIRLS NUMBER!"
So what do I do?
Make here wait even longer (bwahahahaha)
So I do some laundry, take a shower, and then call her at 2.
No one picks up, which sucks, but I say "Ill try at 5 then"
Waited till 5, and called, then got an answer, from jessica=D (wewt)
Long story short, I asked her out on a date that night, she said yes.
I go to pick her up at her house (which is in Linden) and I greet her at her door, and soon enough, We are off.
I originally planned out an evening at Native New Yorker (Logan says that it was a good place to have a date, without it being completely a date date, so more like a "I wanna get to know you" date.)
But turns out, Jessie is a vegan. (WHO THE HELL SAW THIS COMING)
I usually bring vegan's home to my mother...
Anywho, so I ask what she would like to do, and instead of a nice date there (stay with me on this one please), We went to Shell Gas, got two coffees, and went up onto this culd-a-sack (No effing Idea how to spell this one) and we sat there and watched the stars and talked for a while.
Ultimately, we decided that we should go to my house and watch a movie.
I learn a lot about this girl in the short comings of about...2 hours, and she still wanted to talk after that while we were trying to watch the crazies.
I don't know if any of you know this, but when a movie is on the TV (and one I really like) its kinda hard for me to concentrate....baaaad thing, but whatever.
We are still talking about life and what we are wanting to do with it, and thus we came up on the thing, we will not have sex yet because we don't want to ruin anything.
Celibacy up and strong still.
So, Day 16:
Jessie, the undeniably hot vegan girl from Linden.
Oh and she is 17.
Sooooo....DAY 17:
Nothing...seriously, nothing happened today, I worked, came home at 6, called Jessie up and talked to her for a bit.
Oh and Logan and I made moist biscuits and chicken dumpling type stuff. (Be warned, baking frenzy details coming up.)
And before we started baking our moist biscuits, I had the brilliant idea of "HOLY EFF LETS MAKE SOME MUTHAEFFIN BROWNIES!"
So we did.
However, after making biscuits and chicken, we got the brownie mix out, I got all the ingredients we needed for regular brownie mix, and then we added pecans.
It started with just pecans, but we needed some more water, so Logan wondered if we could put Half and Half into our brownie mix.
OFF TO THE INTERNET!
And then he found a recipe for something to which we almost already made. We just needed:
2 extra eggs
5 tablespoons of butter
6 <insert measure amount that we did here> of cream cheese
and like 18 cups of different baking things.
So we made ourselves some cream cheese and pecan brownies.
And
they
were
AWESOME!
DAY 18!!! Second date with Jessie!
So today was the second date with Jessie.
It started by me picking her up from school for lunch (hahaha...hahah...ha...hoooo) and then picking her up after school.
To which then I got the pleasure of meeting her friends.
Cassy was pretty cool, but the dude we picked up was...ummm...a juggalo.
NOW, for you who don't know about juggalos, they are kids so obsessed with ICP, that they feel the need to call themselves this name because its "cool"
And for most of you who don't know me, I have a slight....annoyance towards ICP and their "clown posse," in fact, if I could, I would go back in time to when ICP was just starting, and I would individually call each of their mothers and make them listen to the "mad lyrics they be spittin" and hope to god they get grounded for the rest of their natural lives. (Thus stopping the "Juggalo" movement.)
If this makes you mad, I am sorry, thats just my OPINION. Not forcing it upon you (yet) but I just don't think they are that good of musicians. But to each their own right?
He was pretty much a dick the whole time we were hanging out, and it sucked, but it was ok cause I was talking to Jessie pretty much the whole time.
Then I had to work at 7 30 to 12 at wallyworld...ugh.
That was about as eventful as a statue of a garden gnome watching grass grow as snails run up and down his glassy gnome-like body.
So there is your damn recap!
I will talk about day 19 later tonight maybe hopefully, sorry again for not being up to date with my blog, again, things got in the way...good things....stay tuned.
OH RIGHT THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG!
So, there is this game that came out recently called "Amnesia: The Dark Descent."
I read the synopsis of the game and thought to myself, "Hey this will be fun, it seems dark, scary, and smart."
*Ehem* let me say this first off....FUCK THAT GAME!
You jump into the game, and immediately it gives you a warning that you should be wearing headphones, have the lights off, and the darkness set to "pretty damn dark" (its so dark sometimes, that even when I brought out the lantern in the game, no light showed up still haha.)
So you start off, stumbling your way across a castle, trying to make yourself remember that you are "Daniel," a man who apparently by his voice, is a English man from the 80's or 70's.
He is an archeologist who found an orb in Egypt while uncovering ancient ruins.
After picking up said "orb," a deadly shadow kept following him, killing everyone he encountered. (Sounds like my ex girlfriend, HAHA *budum tsh*)
So this shadow thing...turns out to be the future trying to catch up with itself because the orb daniel found was some gate to another dimension and blah blah blah.
Not knowing that the shadow could hurt me, I run into the game with a sense of false security.
Running around, opening doors, laughing, throwing plants joyfully out windows and throwing brooms into fire pits.
Fun right? Wrong.
Immediately, shit starts getting real!
You hear scary noises, you run towards the noises, you find blood, and a note you wrote yourself saying you took a potion that caused you to have Amnesia. (So if your wanting to forget what was going on...why tell yourself to go and remember everything you forgotten just so you can remember why you wanted to forget the horror behind the shadow)
So after a while of seeing random creepy monster zombies walk past my screen, I was all like...S.O.B!
Long story short, if the random creepy monster zombie sees you....he starts chasing you like there is no effing tomorrow.
Oh by the way, your completely defenseless. (Thats right, no gun, no planks of wood, no makeshift zombie hunting doom rifle to your help...just a lantern, and wits..if you have any)
So I got smacked around by Zombie number one for about...19 hours.
Then im in a sewer, and notice..."Hey..where did Zombie guy go?"
Then heard a terrible dying sound.
Stumbled into a room where, "Hey look! Zombie numbe....oh god...." (Zombie number one will be missed)
After seeing the Zombie I thought was the strongest thing alive, torn in two by something other then me, my initial reaction was "Yay! No more zombies!!!!" to which the sound of metal tearing through more metal was coming my way.
"SHIT!!!" I hide in a corner, only to see that there is yet another Zombie!
Enter in Zombie #2, now, not as smart as number 1...but he did tear number 1 in half.
Zombie 2 has a giant blade for one arm, face torn out and ripped off, and in place of his face, three eyeballs and a couple teeth....yeah....
This guy....is scary as hell, and faster than anything on the living planet. (Or in the fucked up castle your in)
So another 18 hours of solving ridiculous puzzles that shouldn't have been invented in the first place, and getting chased around corners where Zombie 2 is waiting to make some Brendo/Daniel beef stroganoff, and finally I am nearing the end of the game!
HUZZAH THE NIGHTMARE IS ALMOST OVER!!!
However, I still have to get through this part, which consists of terrible things happening to me.
Zombie ambush.
Jailed by the Zombie Ambush.
Escaping Jail.
Running for my life so that a giant red bloody boil of a mess doesn't consume me.
And then decapitating a man with a bonesaw so that I can take his head into the other dimension. (Don't even ask)
So I beat the game, immediately uninstalled the game.
And swore it off for the rest of my life.
If anyone wants a more descriptive time of my horror with this game, go ahead and comment saying that. If 10 people want me to, I will post that as a blog, along with pictures from the game.
Till then, fare thee well traveler, and until next time...FOR SCIENCE!!!!!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The plot thickens...heh heh....thickens....heh (Celibate Day 15)
Ahhh...approaching day 15, my mind felt pretty much the same.
"Shit work"
"Shit its early"
"Shit..." (I think you get the point now)
I walked into work at 8 30 in the morning after falling asleep at (yet again) 1 in the morning, yippie!
To my jubilant entrance into Walmart, I was greeted by my boss, who sent me to my hell station for the day.
Register...number here. (I dont remember..why? should I have?)
Anywhoo!
I am just working my daily shift, counting down the hours, minutes, seconds until my first break.
First break approaches, I sit in my car and listen to Lydia.
(I effing love Lydia, by the way, to you readers who don't know me that well yet. I have everyone of their cd's and I cant stop listening to them. They are beautiful. They are awe inspiring. They are Lydia. Sadly the band split up, just barely finished their "Fair well" tour. I got a little emotional at the concert...cough cough....but they are in the works of releasing a last installment of beauty into the music world soon. In fact, I had to draw a little something on my hand, just because I was bored at work, and had Lydia stuck in my head.)<--picture to the left, to the left.
So back to my story, after break, I was sent to the worst of all places to work in Walhell...the greeters station. (Or as I like to put it, Satan's Hello)
After about an hour and a half of doing this crap of putting on a fake smile (and pretending I give a damn about why your returning your broken shit) I go back to a register for about...20 minutes.
LUNCH TIME!!!
Nothing happened, just lunch...and still thinking about my Celibacy.
At lunch, I dwindled for a while, went to stumbleupon.com (which rocks! be tee dub)
Then off to work I go for my last half of shift.
Whilst on my last four hours of work, I was moved from register to register to cover for other peoples breaks. (Woohoo for me being satans little helper!)
Then, out of no effing where!
This girl comes into my line! (comes into my effing line! and she is beautiful)
Now, this may not be a shocker to...well anyone right now, but here is the story.
BEEEEAUTIFUL GAL IN WALLYWORLD
After working at Walmart for a while (and after my dear mother leaves for Albuquerque) Im back on the job, working a register.
Out of the corner of my retinas, I see this girl, who happens upon looking at me AT THE SAME. DAMN. TIME. Coincidence? I think it is. (Its not)
She comes into my line.
We flirt.
We trade stares. (and currency for the 80 dollar book she wants to buy)
And we depart.
It never crossed my mind to get her number...because I fail at life.
So inside I was like, "Meh, whatever, I work at Walmart. She has to come back in some later week." (She doesn't)
Two months of no beautiful gal, coming into my line, getting a book, and flirting with me.
WHICH BRINGS ME BACK TO NOWLAND!
Shocking, beautiful gal, after 2 months of not seeing her, shows up IN MY EFFING LINE!!
We look at each other, immediately smile/smirk, and trade stares yet again.
So after I was done checking this one dudes groceries n such, I looked at her, and smiled again.
We talked for a bit, and then, smoothly I said, "Hey...do you have a number by chance?"
"Why yes, yes I do."
"Write it on this, PIECE O RECEIPT PAPER!"
Totally worked.
So this girl...has me and my celibacy on a run.
So what do I choose dear reader/passerby/friend?
I am going to call her tomorrow afternoon, and see if she would like to hangout or have a little...get together.
Gonna go to Native New Yorker (its a pretty friendly appropriate date place...right? right.)
And then bring her to meet my roomies! haha so It should be an epic tale to tell the lads.
As for now, I am going to get going...maybe I shall post again later tonight on the happenings of Brendo.
But maybe not...FOR SCIENCE!!!
"Shit work"
"Shit its early"
"Shit..." (I think you get the point now)
I walked into work at 8 30 in the morning after falling asleep at (yet again) 1 in the morning, yippie!
To my jubilant entrance into Walmart, I was greeted by my boss, who sent me to my hell station for the day.
Register...number here. (I dont remember..why? should I have?)
Anywhoo!
I am just working my daily shift, counting down the hours, minutes, seconds until my first break.
First break approaches, I sit in my car and listen to Lydia.
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| "And so I woke up near the sea...I did Lydia | " |
So back to my story, after break, I was sent to the worst of all places to work in Walhell...the greeters station. (Or as I like to put it, Satan's Hello)
After about an hour and a half of doing this crap of putting on a fake smile (and pretending I give a damn about why your returning your broken shit) I go back to a register for about...20 minutes.
LUNCH TIME!!!
Nothing happened, just lunch...and still thinking about my Celibacy.
At lunch, I dwindled for a while, went to stumbleupon.com (which rocks! be tee dub)
Then off to work I go for my last half of shift.
Whilst on my last four hours of work, I was moved from register to register to cover for other peoples breaks. (Woohoo for me being satans little helper!)
Then, out of no effing where!
This girl comes into my line! (comes into my effing line! and she is beautiful)
Now, this may not be a shocker to...well anyone right now, but here is the story.
BEEEEAUTIFUL GAL IN WALLYWORLD
After working at Walmart for a while (and after my dear mother leaves for Albuquerque) Im back on the job, working a register.
Out of the corner of my retinas, I see this girl, who happens upon looking at me AT THE SAME. DAMN. TIME. Coincidence? I think it is. (Its not)
She comes into my line.
We flirt.
We trade stares. (and currency for the 80 dollar book she wants to buy)
And we depart.
It never crossed my mind to get her number...because I fail at life.
So inside I was like, "Meh, whatever, I work at Walmart. She has to come back in some later week." (She doesn't)
Two months of no beautiful gal, coming into my line, getting a book, and flirting with me.
WHICH BRINGS ME BACK TO NOWLAND!
Shocking, beautiful gal, after 2 months of not seeing her, shows up IN MY EFFING LINE!!
We look at each other, immediately smile/smirk, and trade stares yet again.
So after I was done checking this one dudes groceries n such, I looked at her, and smiled again.
We talked for a bit, and then, smoothly I said, "Hey...do you have a number by chance?"
"Why yes, yes I do."
"Write it on this, PIECE O RECEIPT PAPER!"
Totally worked.
So this girl...has me and my celibacy on a run.
So what do I choose dear reader/passerby/friend?
I am going to call her tomorrow afternoon, and see if she would like to hangout or have a little...get together.
Gonna go to Native New Yorker (its a pretty friendly appropriate date place...right? right.)
And then bring her to meet my roomies! haha so It should be an epic tale to tell the lads.
As for now, I am going to get going...maybe I shall post again later tonight on the happenings of Brendo.
But maybe not...FOR SCIENCE!!!
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